It's been awhile...but it's all winding down. That seems a little crazy to me, didn't I just start? Wasn't I just crying in the parking lot at the hospital because I couldn't find my car on the first day [and of course assumed someone hot-wired it to sell it for parts on the black market]? No, apparently I survived mostly unscathed through this year.
It's less than a month now and I'm wondering how a person in my situation should feel. A sort of limbo land has appeared. It was so nice living in the bubble world that I lived in, I wasn't a real adult with a real job, I lived in a safe community, and sustained myself off of fake money that will at some point in the future be paid back. I spent all those years at home making roots and then learned of the benefit of flying - wings to take me on a journey, an adventure. I suppose I'm not quite satiated yet. Isn't there more to do and see here? I know there's more people to become friends with but the days keep slipping past.
Once the bubble is burst I'm not sure where I'll stand. I can't go home and act like my life hasn't drastically changed. It has! I have! But can I stay here and still be satisfied after all the fellow bubble dwellers head on their separate ways as well? I'm not allowing myself the chance and I don't know that it is feasible anyway. Jobs are not as easy to come by here and I have not had time to network my way around. Suddenly, a year master program seems like a very short thing. I guess the only thing to do in this situation is to pray and to pray swiftly.
In other news [as there always is] I was able to see Harry Potter today and it was awesome, just as I was hoping it would be. Also, I attended Club Rodeo. It's a club. It's a rodeo. I have never had dirt flung at me before someone asked me to dance. It is literal and it was fun [except for the smoke....as usual].
Until you read again...sylyb
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